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bruising blue twilight

Why must I drown in this river of madness
how to escape from a broken up brain?
I don't wanna drift from this bruising blue twilight
picking up pieces to start it again
and again

The jewel of Denial
Holds it down for a while
may not have a clue
yea, but don't touch that dial

Why must I drown in this river of madness
how to escape from a broken up brain?
I don't wanna drift from this bruising blue twilight
picking up pieces to start it again & again

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garote
Mar. 12th, 2006 08:32 am (UTC)
You have the same sense of humor, style, and curiosity that you've had since forever. There's truth to the cliche that artists suffer, or perhaps are more susceptible to it, but you don't need to suffer like this - you don't have to, and don't deserve to. You can not only make things better again at the peak of some cycle, but make them different, completely outside of a cycle, in ways you may not be able to see from here.

I know we haven't had a chance to hang out much, and I wish there was more I could do about that, but I still know with 100% certainty that the dynamic and clever Kamio I always saw whenever we talked is still there, a true constant of your personality. Something about where you are, or recent events, may be obscuring it - but it's impossible to erase.

Is it the local crowd, or where you live? Is it that none of your immediate options are interesting? Maybe it's all three, which would completely suck... Is someone on your case? Someone bothering you, being abusive? If you're feeling small and trapped and unmotivated, your senses probably have a legitimate complaint. If you feel like you're in a rut, or surrounded by things that demand attention but aren't interesting, feel free to clean house and throw those things (or those people) out. You can do that and still be yourself. You can do that and become more yourself.

And that self is not some unlovable beast. It's that core I've consistently seen in you: awake, alive, observant, worth knowing. Worth listening to. Worth having around. Remember that, please :)
caffeina
Mar. 12th, 2006 08:47 am (UTC)
dang
Wow... Thank you. phew... Let me think on this a while.
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